“When the things you enjoy in life feel like a job, sometimes you just have to take a step back”
So it’s been awhile hasn’t it? In the spring I decided I needed a break, writing just to make sure you publish something was becoming a job not a joy. I started to notice as well that there was a an overwhelming change in the “nerd” community, a commercialization that’s been brewing the last 5-8 years. Unfortunately being a fan has become a way for more then a few people to make a living. I can attest that rubs me the wrong way and it can wear on you and your true fandom.
There was also I larger ground swell of negativity, and frankly no one needs more of the worlds negativity, fandom is a place to escape. Why so many critical judgments are being floated around towards members of the community was beyond me. I also knew that with the upcoming release of what is hands down my favorite movie franchise and the reason I nerd out, there were going to be many people passing judgment and ruining the anticipation of the release of Star Wars.
For those reasons and other personal achievements in my life, buying a house, working my 50-60 hour a week day job, it only made sense to put it all down for awhile and re-asses what I was missing. I think for the first two months of the summer I didn’t feel like I was missing anything, sure I still paid some attention to movie releases but this was easily the summer of the fewest trips the theater for me since I was a kid. The MoGT even made a low key trip to Knoxville for the Fan Boy Expo to see some friends. Still I didn’t feel like I was missing out, SDCC came and went and it was wasn’t a hassle I felt like I missed. I think I had resigned myself to just walking away and becoming a casual fan for the first time in my life.
All that being said, I digress for a minute. My 3yr old son is an adorable fan boy in the making, doesn’t matter if its Marvel, Frozen, or Star Wars he eats it up. Just so happens the legendary Carrie Fisher came to town a few weeks ago (Rose City CC) and I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to win dad of the year by taking him to meet Princess Leia. The joy he had running myself all over the convention floor for 8 hours taking pictures with all the cosplayers he recognized as his favorite superheros, I remembered what I loved about the community. He single handily re-sparked my interest.
So in the end, that age old saying we all learned from our mothers, “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all”. Let’s all remember we are all here to enjoy our fandom, and steward the stories we all love to the next generation of fans. If you can’t bring something positive or motivational to the community, maybe this isn’t the space you should spend your time in. I think with that being said it’s a reminder to myself to focus on what I enjoy, and share that with those I hope will enjoy it as much as I do someday.